My name is Amanda and I am a chocoholic. There- I said it. Though, I have known for a long time. They say the first step is admitting you have a problem. The bigger problem is my lack of willingness to do anything about it. I love and hate this fact about myself. Anyone who reads my profile on this blog knows this is who I am.
I sometimes hear people say, "Oh, I am such a chocoholic- I just can't get enough of it- I could eat a whole box of girl scout cookies!!" I always think the difference between those who say these things and those who really are chocoholics is that chocoholics actually do it.
I think chocolate and peanut butter is the worlds best invention. There is just simply not a better taste combination. I love Tagalongs- the girl scout cookies. I ordered several boxes earlier this year and they were all gone, except for one lonely box of Tagalongs. I had done well and had saved them. My reasons for saving them? Knowing they would be gone as soon as I opened them- and I had been eating way to much other junk lately so I was saving them for a special time.
So, what happens when you combine a husband out of town with kids in bed, a book to read and a lonely box of tagalongs? You get an empty box....... Yes, I actually ate the whole box while I was reading. And I am embarrassed to admit I do NOT feel like I am going to puke. I only have the sensation of the pounds piling on in my waist. But they were really good!!! (See, I love and hate it! I don't know if there is much hope for an addict like me!) But, it is better to be addicted to chocolate (and I should add junk food too- I am a bit of a junk food junkie.) than cigarettes or alcohol. Those you have to give up entirely, but hey, a person still has to eat! If I could just learn moderation, I would be alright.
So Monday is back to weight watchers..... wish me luck!!
(side note- to those of you who don't know, I recently lost about 100 lbs total with the help of nursing babies, weight watchers, and part of that was on my own too. Despite the fact that I have gained back just a few pounds and tonights indulgence, I do not intend to go backward. It is a daily battle that I continue to fight. Just like an alcoholic who may not have had a drink in years still craves that drink, I will always have to battle, but I intend to win- box of girl scout cookies and all!!!)
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