Sorry I have been MIA from here lately. We have been busy, but just not much that was post worthy- just normal everyday stuff. Everyone is healthy and well (no "pig cold" yet....) and busy with school, work, home, etc. I am sure my next post will be the obligatory fall pictures of the tons of fun we have had- but until then, I will share some thoughts I have had.
I feel a little vulnerable writing this because I will demonstrate my lack of perfection (as I am sure everyone really believed I was perfect....ha!).
I believe that the Holy Spirit gives us promptings from time to time to guide us to things we need to do or people that need our help. It speaks in a small voice in our hearts that we must work toward being spiritually in tune to hear. I have ignored that voice a couple times lately and have seen the consequences first hand.
There had been a time when I had all flashlights together with working batteries and matches in an easy place for me to grab. It had occurred to me lately that I was quite sure all batteries had died and I wasn't entirely sure where the flashlights and matches were. I knew between us and the kids, they had moved over time. I felt I needed to make sure everything was organized and ready. Maybe this was partly due to a Relief Society night we had just had at church that taught about preparedness, but also, no doubt, a prompting I needed to follow through with. I got busy, however, and put it off. Friday night, we had a great time at our church Halloween party (pictures coming soon). Afterward, Aaron had to head off somewhere, while I headed home with the kids by myself (we had driven separately). I came home to a house that was pitch black due to an unexplained power outage. I found myself rummaging in the dark for our grill lighter and lighting a candle to use to find one of our flashlights which had dead batteries and using that one candle still to find the batteries to put in the flashlight to then go around and light more candles- all while getting kids and stuff in the house and getting kids ready for bed. It was not fun. Had I just taken a little time earlier in that very same day when the thought was heavy on my mind- it would have been a much easier situation to handle. In the end, everything was fine and the power came on about 1/2 hour later. Definitely a lesson in preparedness and following promptings.
Unfortunately, that is not the only example. There is a another, more painful one. There was a certain member at our church that I had not seen in a while. I was worried about her and I felt I should call her. I put it off as I often do phone calls, as I am not a big phone person. One Sunday, I saw her husband there and I asked about her. He explained she has had to work a lot of Sundays and that is why she wasn't there. I felt better knowing that it was because she was working and not because she didn't want to be there or that there wasn't something big wrong. Deep down, I just knew I still needed to call her, but I did not. Maybe partly because on a following Sunday, I saw her at church and chatted with her a couple minutes. She is someone I have always liked and thought highly of, it is just hard for me to reach out and start friendships. How I wish I could go back in time and make that phone call and reach out a little more. A couple months after that, her husband died a very sudden, completely unexpected death at a young age. The entire church was in shock and she was devastated and has been working on picking up the pieces while being a now single mom to 3 young children. I have reached out a few times, but my help offers have not been accepted probably because I didn't establish myself as a support person before this tragedy. I think God was trying to tell me that-even though she was okay then- the time was coming she would need support. She does have family and friends though that have been right there with her. This is something I have asked God for forgiveness for. I really want to do my best to never fail on a prompting again. The first example had minor, inconvenient consequences, the second had bigger consequences.
In my defense, there is a couple times I have gotten it right. An acquaintance had been in a car accident with some moderate injuries. She had a very busy husband and two young kids she was trying to care for. I felt strongly that I needed to at least take them dinner, since this wasn't someone I knew well. So, I just showed up at their door with food and she was so grateful. They had eaten nothing but fast food all week because she just did not have the strength to cook and her husband did not have the time.
There has of course been a few times where that voice has helped with my children in keeping them safe, or knowing what to do when they are sick.
So, I would encourage everyone to listen to those promptings and follow through, no matter how simple or silly it may seem. I know I am committed to doing better.
Summer Cool Down Tour
1 day ago